This is 40 Over 40… meet Kristina
This, I think we can all agree, has been a year.
For some, the challenges presented by 2020 have been almost academic - something to read about and hear about in the news, but not really anything to have any immediate effect. For others, the effects of this year have been monumental, almost insurmountable. For Kristina and her family, this year has been confrontational and disruptive, and will leave it’s ripples in her family for some time to come.
As a career pilot, Kristina has now been through two industry-levelling events. She had just graduated flight school and was living in the states when the events of 9/11 changed the future of air travel - and her career - forever. As a newly graduated pilot, she became a barista for a time while her industry recovered and emerged anew. After the events of this year and their effects on her (and her husbands!) careers as pilots, she’s vowed to make a change and start afresh with a new direction.
Having spent most of the year separated from her husband by distance (he was on the other side of the globe when the lockdowns and quarantines began, and has been working to get home ever since), she has found herself in the role of sole parent to their 2 children, and seeking a new career for the first time since deciding as a girl that her dream was to be a pilot.
When we spoke on the phone before her shoot, she told me that she wanted a record of this time so that she could look back and see that despite it all, they were still standing, that she had resilience, and that she and her kids knew that they would find strength they didn’t know they had because of this journey. It was right then I knew I couldn’t wait to meet her, and document this time for her to revisit again - when the time was right.
Kristina - thank you for your candour, your vulnerability and your trust. I hope these images and this experience helps you to remember always, that you are indeed a bad-ass 🤘
As part of the experience of the campaign, each of the 40 women featured were asked to share their thoughts in response to 10 questions, as I want to share each woman’s story, in her own words, and show that we are so much more than just pretty pictures.
Here’s what Kristina has to say…
What is 'beautiful' to you? What do you think that means? And when do you feel most beautiful?
I was always taught to use the word 'beautiful' to refer to a person's outward appearance. In my late teens, I certainly didn't see myself as 'beautiful' and I was uncomfortable with the traditional description of the word, so I adapted the word, made it my own, and created a description of a person who exudes kindness. This was comfortable to me, beauty and kindness, synonymous and interchangeable; and it is still how I see beauty today. I still strive to be beautiful and kind, and I find it still a challenge as it draws on me to be softer and gentler than I must be in my professional career.
What are you most looking forward to as you get older?
To not give a shit about as much as I do right now. To let go of the stress of everyday, release 'friends' who are toxic, not care about those extra kilos, to keep a messy house, and to embrace all criticism and openly laugh at awkward and difficult situations. Which all translates to just being comfortable with the person I'm evolving into.
If you had the chance to say something to your younger self, what would it be?
Speaking to my younger self, I would say; " take more chances, don't do what is expected of you, learn to recognize and take all the opportunities you are offered, don't be afraid to say Goodbye...." I look back with the wisdom of hindsight and wish I had taken that job, or returned that call, or taken that chance encounter - my life would have been more rewarding/easier if I'd taken that other path. Instead, I let fear inhibit my actions and leave regrets.
Do you have a significant moment when you started to love / value yourself?
No, I'm not there yet. I'm a work in progress... I do acknowledge the moment when I stopped loving myself! I had made a big decision outside my comfort zone, and it didn't go well, I should have admitted my mistake and yet, I continued to make one bad decision after another until I felt I couldn't ever correct or make it right. One small step at a time to get a better place....
How has your relationship to the role of Motherhood changed you?
It has broken me. I can see now, that being a mother doesn't come naturally, or easily to me. I mother with too much of my own baggage in my words and actions. I'm learning to step back, and let my children forge their own path without my judgement pushing them in a particular direction. Learning I'm just here to guide them, and stop them from injuring themselves is a process I'm working through.
If you could be the woman of your dreams - who would you be? Tell me about her…
She is the definition of Confidence! She can field strip an AK-47 at lunch and make Beef Stroganoff that night for dinner! Eats what she wants, drinks like a fish, and can look after herself in a rough situation. Comfortable in both formal and informal social circles, best friends with her kids and always hanging and having a fun time! She laughs in the face of fear and eats stress for breakfast - she kicks ass everywhere she goes! She is Confidence!
In what ways do you feel like you've gotten better with age? What are the gifts of ageing?
I've learnt to recognize a bad situation for what it is - oh, I still make mistakes, I'm just better and wiser at dealing with the consequences. Errors are not the dramatic be-all and end-all they are in one's younger days. I'm now able to exercise patience and the ability to stop and think of all aspects of a situation and then live with my decision. I wouldn't say one does get smarter with age, just better at using brain cells to look at decisions with patience and wisdom. I'm better at slowing down, which I've been trying to do for years.
What legacy do you want to leave? If you weren't here tomorrow, how do you want to be remembered?
I would love to remembered as a trailblazer, who strove for the unattainable, and achieved it through perseverance, tenacity and resilience. I remember saying to my mother when I was 13 years old; " I'm going to be a flight attendant when I grow up!" She asked why I had chosen that particular profession, and I had replied," because I love aeroplanes so much." She then uttered the words which would change my life, " then why not be a pilot?" I didn't even know girls could be pilots! What a revelation!
And lastly - in your own words, tell me your story…
I've been fortunate to have travelled the world, first with my family and then with my job. I have met extraordinary people in ridiculously amazing circumstances, and have experienced more cultures and adventures than most. From being the first female bellhop in Australia to achieving command as a Captain for an airline in the United States; I've survived two industry crippling events in the last twenty years, remained married through it all, and been blessed with two healthy children. I've returned to Australia seeking a kinder environment for my kids to experience, and now find myself contemplating a career change. I'm going to use this downtime of 2020 as a reflection and a 'RESET' for myself and my attitude. My new goal is to be kinder to myself, my kids and in the words of John Lennon, " let it be, let it be..."
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With Love + Light, Fiona 🖤
